christmas is 2 days away. and i chose to rededicate my life today at cornerstone. thank you so much pearl.. and hs, yingxiu, limmy, the old cell for its their encouragement these months that made me realise i need to get back.. like i told yx i felt it like it was a birthday present for God. whats more with lighthouse camp on 26th-29th.. aiming to grow, to learn.. the problem now with this is committing and living right. difficult.

old cell on friday night. once in a half year meetups are precious.. jeremy on his motorbike in civil defence, even jonathan came for awhile. my entire house was smokey and oily thanks to the guys bad cooking. Yk's 'best day in his year'.. prayers, sharing and stayover, talked to esther till 6 on my bed, we're both awaiting church camp and expecting great changes =)

spent tonight applying for all the things in the world starting 1st week of jan. apart from bangkok and japan, i've decided to spend 7 months building up resume hopefully for med school (volunteer in a million places, and mean it when i do it) , short attachments, work outside the hospital in ANYWHERE with high pay.

so this is how it goes: tmr and christmas would be perfect, then church camp, then return home for squad christmas meetup, and countdown to a better year on the 31st, an exciting year with 7 free months that holds great plans.

i've got a secret. i might have gotten him back =) just not sure if i want him anymore now. sleeps and snores the whole day and night away so i'm left alone watching laptop movies, otherwise driving illegally endangering my life and that of his friends.... still he cooks well judging from last night's dinner, might have found a potential tutee for me, has nice laptop movies, and owns a freaking cool camera.. so... i guess im okay =)

slowly, we'll make it.